Hhahah decided to delete my previous post, it seemed to be kind of traaagic, which is obviously not true.

Well, I'm alright with what I'm doing sometimes.

I've been thinking a lot about this balance between out of control person as a part of your ego, and another one, who just keeps sort of analyzing it. I can't call it rational (sorry, I'm just a bit obsessed with this theories, which I'm forced to study as part of my IR programm and which I find a bit boring, but have nothing left to do except trying to reflect it on the real life. We have to gain something anyway, yeah?). There's just no challange and result. We stay what we are, even if it seemes to be a complete cnahge. You think that you'll never-ever find yourself on the bridge in the middle of the night, drunk and uncertain - but another day you're trying to steal a car (without having a driver license or any practical knowledge how to drive it). It's obviosly such a stupid risk, but it's so cool. I mean these little proofs of your everlasting youth.

Today I had the last class before my trips to Berlin and London, I am supposed to have some kind of a break, but there's so much study shit left (I'm extremely bad at meeting any deadlines). Also have to think about my upcoming interview with Comanechi band and a fabuluous girl Akiko Matsuura. She's not a drummer there any more, what I've learned just recently, but it would be even cooler to interview the band after some changes.

Copenhagen tomorrow for the whole day, have to get some rest after quite stressful beginning of the week. I just went NUTS yesterday haha